A sudden, significant, and profound loss shifted my life in mid November of 2019. As I have worked to stabilize, there has been no energy nor inclination to devote to posting writings during these past few months. But this morning held an unexpected breakthrough. While in meditation, a powerful affirmation came rushing through me. It literally pulled me from contemplating the Presence, into hearing the Presence. Fourteen words, within one sentence, and I was opened to begin my journey into healing.
I am the Presence in all that is, and I am here within you.
I am Whole because you are here. You are here within me.
I am loved because you are here. You are here within me.
I am at Peace, because you are here. You are here within me.
I am grateful for every experience that has brought me to this place.
Here, to where I am now. Here, immersed in your Presence.
I am grateful. You have always been here. You have always been here within me.
You are my Source, my partner, my strength, my foundation, my truest friend.
You have loved me every single moment of my journey. You have loved me even when I did not know how to love myself.
You have loved me into who I am. You have always had confidence in me; to step up, to keep stepping up — and stepping into being the best person I could be.
It’s just me here now, with you. I am grateful at this time that is just we two. The two of us, as one, together.
I see you in everyone, in everything, and everywhere. You come to me in the faces of my family, my friends, and strangers that I meet. You are in the purr of my cats, Noble and Moose. You are in the excitement of my dog, Max, at the notion of going for a car ride. You are in the verdant, rolling hills surrounding my home town, Sutter Creek. You are in the lowing of the cows that dot those hills.
You are in the shared laughter with loved ones. You are in their warm embrace. You are in my favorite chocolate chip cookie, and in my cup of cappuccino. You are in the smile of a stranger. You are in the words that come through me. You are in the art that fills my canvas. You are in my body as it responds to the task of cleaning my home, watering the plants, and attending to every single need of living this life.
You fill the space in my home. I breathe in your sacred air. I walk upon your holy ground. I soak in nature’s resplendence. Your Light and Love move with me, wherever I go.
I thank you for the care and kindness offered to me by so many. I know who each one of them is; like everything else, they are you. You are the field of potential, of all possibility. Guide me in choosing with wisdom. Guide my heart to stay ever open.